Cabin fever! The other day Jamie said, "I just want to get out of the house." I told her, "You have cabin fever." Of course she didn't know what that was, so I had to explain. But you know what... I too have cabin fever. It has been a long, cold, wet winter and I am ready for the sun to come out. 

Today we went to the library then straight to the river. We spent an hour or so just walking along the river path, taking pictures and throwing stones. The Comal River looks beautiful and the water sounds so tranquil. The girls and I really just enjoyed the simplicity of being together.  I may have another motive at work that I wasn't aware of until now. Even though I have my children, I am rather lonely. Usually my routine involves, housework, schoolwork and office work. And mingled in between is cooking, bathing and sleeping. It seems that for months I have so occupied myself with these things that I have forgotten the simplicity of being with my children. I guess I just miss my husband so much that I have been trying to keep myself so busy so I won't feel how much I miss him. But all that this busyness has done has made me incredibly tired. So tired. So today I stepped out of my routine and just lived for the moment. I lived to enjoy life. I lived to be with my girls, even in the midst of missing Ramiro so very much.