My Purpose, Is His Purpose

 Woe to those who go to great depths to hide their plans from the Lord, who do their work in darkness and think, "Who see's us? Who will know?" You turn things upside down, as if the potter were thought to be like the clay! Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, "He did not make me"? Can the pot say of the potter, "He knows nothing"? Isaiah 29:15-16


This little, itty, bitty nugget came from my BSF study this morning. It brought with it great thought and understanding. In our society today I see it and hear it everywhere. What is your purpose? What are you going to do with your life? There are even books and counselors to help guide me to find what I'm "created to do." How arrogant! How ignorant to think like that! To think I know what my future holds, how to make it happen and how to get there. And yet, for most of my life, that is how I thought. At a very early age, I wanted to have it all and I wanted to have it fast. I wanted to become a nurse, own a flower shop, buy a house and get married. By age twenty-three it happened. I graduated from nursing school in August 1995, got married September 1995, bought a flower shop February 1996 and bought our first home September 1999. Now how's that for making things happen! But you see, even though I had all that "success", I had accomplished "great things", I was still a failure. In reality I hadn't accomplished anything at all. You see, we had just come to know of Jesus in September 1996. I worshiped Him with my mouth but my heart, my heart, was very far from Him. Read Isaiah 29:13-14, he is speaking of His own people. At this point I qualify. When I look back now, fifteen years later, fifteen years of being shaped, molded and worked on by the Lord I realize and see things so much different...it is not my life to lead, but rather it is His hand to follow. Even up to a few months ago. Again, God showed and said, "It is my purpose you were created for." And what is that purpose...I think it quite ironic... Simply to raise my family. Why ironic? There's no glory there, there's no wowing anyone with being a mom. People aren't impressed by my title..."homemaker." Ahhh, but God is. God knows me all to well. It's true. He knows what "success" does to me...it cause great pride! But humility... it causes great submission! And after all that is were the Lord wants me. He wants me in a place where I can submit and not resist. Where I will obey what He desires to do in my life. What does He want? He wants something I would have never planned for myself, something where the focus is not on what I can accomplish to bring me glory but rather what God can accomplish through me to bring Him great, great glory. My purpose...to raise my children, build my home and love my husband, all to the Glory of God. He desires a new generation of Gutierrez's that will know Him, love Him and serve Him. May His will be done! 
What is your purpose?
Phileo,
Patsy